Bandit Diaires CANCELLED

[rhinocrunch 471]

Something very profound has changed in me regarding my playstyle in DayZ. DayZ's creator Dean Hall was recently interviewed by IGN and said "I believe players play style reflect their subconscious". This isn't the first I have come to terms with the inhumanity I have performed in DayZ. More recently, I have these really vivid nightmares that I am murdering people in my dream, with an axe. I wake up terrified that I am wanted for murder somewhere and ashamed at who I am. At first I didn't consider these nightmares significant but when I considered what Dean said, it clicked. I am not a Bandit. I am a psychopathic murderer in DayZ and it is affecting my sub-concious. I do not kill for any reason at all other the sheer sadism. In my early Bandit Diaries, I hide under the guise of "this is how I play, this is not who I am" but au contraire mon cheri, how I play is who I am.

DayZ is quite possibly my favorite game of all time. It has brought my Youtube channel to a level of success I thought would take years to reach; however, I am ashamed at the monster I have become. So Bandit Diaries is done because it never really was a Bandit Diary anyway. It was the darkness of my soul reflected back at the hellish world of Zombies and survivors trying to make it by.

I turned city streets that were once places of commerce and life into terrifying war zones being over-watched with precise military killing machines from hundreds of meters away. I turned places for safe zones and rebuilding civilization into no mans land, ringing shots out from my rifle, killing helpless, innocent survivors, one bullet at a time for no reason at all. I chased groups of survivors that were unarmed and outnumbered with Hatchets murdering them as they screamed in terror. We used grenades, rockets, 50 caliber sniper rifles and satchel charges to destroy the enemy. But who was this enemy we had to kill so mercilessly? What was our war?

I am the enemy. I have turned into the worst type of survivor. In the chaos of a disaster situation of this scale, who I am in DayZ is the worse type of human, humanity could have to offer. Mercilessly murdering innocent, unarmed survivors with overwhelming force and firepower for no reason at all. This is the blackness of my soul. In all those things I have done in DayZ, I have never done the one thing that would make the world a better place if a real situation like this were to occur: helping someone in need and saving a life, instead of taking it. I must repay those who I have destroyed and let your survival be my burden. Let me serve you. I will bring you food. I will bring you water. I will guide you. I will guard you. I will teach you how to survive and send you away safe and secure.

So I am laying down my rifle against survivors. I am dedicating my cause in DayZ to rebuilding humanity instead of destroying it completely. I am setting an example for a generation and hope that you consider your motives in DayZ as well. I will help the weak and less fortunate. Call my name and I will be there. And if I help you and you turn on me, I will forgive you a thousand fold until you question your own motives and maybe help a stranger out yourself.

I rather die a hero than live long enough to see myself become a villain.

[Fraggle (DayZ) 15720]

That's it. Step into the light!

[Man vs Wild 313]

nice man love your channel its cool to see you change!

[Polar Bear (DayZ) 0]

rhino im glad you are doing this you can change dayz with your videos and posts but at first you were changing it the wrong way therefore i am glad to see you have changed

Edited September 2, 2012 by Polar Bear

[DayzSandBox 157]

Looking forward to seeing what kind of a diary you will post next ;)

[GeordieMarv 293]

So your conscience has finally caught upto you?

One more hero, one less bandit.

It will be interesting to see if this starts happening to other bandits. I fear not though.

I'm a hero on the public hive, and i like it. But i do have a character on the private hive that is a bandit for when i get sick of doing good deeds.

To be honest i can see the attraction in being both nice and nasty. I haven't decided which "path" i will chose for standalone though :)

[rhinocrunch 471]

Hero diaries via one of my viewers. And yes, stepping *back* into the light....lol.

[Deetwo 69]

I'm oddly attracted to this post like a moth to a flame.........Oh god its hot!

[[email protected] 180]

............Do what you gotta do, but this was overly dramatic, and definitely disappointing. Your play-style in a video game doesn't reflect (or even affect...usually..) your subconscious. You love this game, and a major part of that love is the thrill of PvP, I believe without it...the game will slowly begin to lose it's appeal for you. All hardcore players have had DayZ related dreams, it doesn't mean that you need to stop being a bandit (if your DayZ change of heart even makes the dreams subside..and it's possible it won't.) If DayZ is slowly eroding your sanity, or subconscious...? You probably shouldn't be playing video games, because that's what it is...a game. It shouldn't affect you in such a way, you shouldn't LET it.

Best of luck to your channel...survivor diaries has been done, and failed so many times before. What will your content be? You sitting next to a fire in the woods...cooking meat from a pig you just killed? I doubt the youtube community is ready for such nail-biting action.

[Bigmonster 3]

Maybe don't be a douche by shooting noobs in the starting areas and you will be fine. Go be a bandit for the good guys. Kill noob killers and script kiddies.

[jc984 3]

O_O never thought i see the day. If it helps rhino your bandit diaries helped me out as a survivor a great deal. I have learned what bandits think like and it helped me avoid them for the most part as i knew what took look for, areas to stay clear of, etc. But I am glad you are hanging up your bandit ways and trying out the hero path.

And dont take it to seriosuly, if video games help bring out what's in your subconcious then everyone is a sociopathic killer. take games like BF3 and COD fpr example. I have been playing games for years and i don't have this need to urge to stab/shoot someone, slap or punch maybe..but not murder them. People who end up like that and just so happen to be a murderer 9 times outta 10 were not mentally stable to begin with. trust me, i wrote a paper on this in college and i did alot of research as my head still hurts from thinking about it.

Well good luck and i will keep an eye out for the hero diaries .

[dutch_miller 159]

............Do what you gotta do, but this was overly dramatic, and definitely disappointing. Your play-style in a video game doesn't reflect (or even affect...usually..) your subconscious

Coming from you?

How humorous.

Edited September 3, 2012 by Dutch Miller

[Ghork 1]

Well, i guess whats fun always ends...I really enjoyed the Bandit Dairies, for me its a game, so i go round killing everything and anything just to get an adrenaline rush, its what the game is about = emotions.I like the game for the rush you get, also getting the kills feels amazing....But you start to loose it aftera couple of kills, so you want more and more to carry on the infinite loop.

[JADNOne 15]

Well, i guess whats fun always ends...I really enjoyed the Bandit Dairies, for me its a game, so i go round killing everything and anything just to get an adrenaline rush, its what the game is about = emotions.I like the game for the rush you get, also getting the kills feels amazing....But you start to loose it aftera couple of kills, so you want more and more to carry on the infinite loop.

I have to agree with you, the first couple of kills I got were on people who had killed one of my friends, and man it felt good, but after those 2 kills I have yet to kill another survivor, there is definitely emotion and sometimes fear/adrenaline felt when you're being shot at, and just randomly running looking for any cover you can find, to give you the time to locate the shooter, then when you do find him, he just logs out... there's also a lot of fun in overwatching towns, seeing someone get taken down by some zombies, then running in there with an M4A1 CCO SD, and saving the guy.. when he probably expects you to just kill him. lol.

[rhinocrunch 471]

Made this after that post last night. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wI8FMSUtmxA&list=UUNFbcu5tU8eFPhjORNPq9pQ&index=1&feature=plcp

[[email protected] 180]

Coming from you?

How humorous.

There's a difference between roleplaying as a ruthless sociopath in a game(and on the forums of said game), and letting it affect my real life...It's not like I walk around my college campus murdering people for their food and belongings... and I gave you beans because you're simple-minded, and that's cute.

[*Regulator* Curt 93]

You know what's really funny? People make fun of people who play games and take them too seriously. You know what the truth is? Gaming can be the most destructive thing in your life, or it can really change your life for the better. In reality, as this demonstrates, games can help us learn more about ourselves -- and teach us lessons that will be with us for the rest of our lives.

Anyways, +1 to you OP, welcome to the light side!

[TheDesigner 1197]

You encounter so many nice people as a Hero, I swear, it's nice to bump into someone who says "Yeah, it's my first time on the game" and give them a good experience instead of shooting them and making them regret downloading DayZ.

[DayzSandBox 157]

@OP's video

Great effin' production!

Edited September 3, 2012 by DayZisMySandbox

[sostronk 334]

Id rather have heard you say you were going to play survivor (challenge) diaries, because saying your going to be playing Hero diaries suggests your still going to be using all those hacked and duplicated weapons and gear off your buddies.

[Delta Smoke 01 765]

In truth, only those who have first embraced it, may challenge true darkness.

[team_player 42]

YOU BASTARDS YOU DID THIS TO HIM, YOU TOOK HIM FROM THE DARKNESS.

The darkness is gonna come and kill you all

[Peter1234 1]

Bandit Diaries was the reason I started playing Day Z. I come from EvE online as a pirate so the whole running about claiming people's gear and causing catastrophe is my type of thing. Not because it's dickish but because I genuinely do enjoy pitting myself against other players. In any situation. Whether it be through hunting a dude down or having a blazing gun fight. Obviously I wouldn't kill a medic, or a dude that's just spawned without any items. If I were to see another bandit, or a dude that is fairly well equipped I would take him out.

Maybe don't stop the Bandit Diaries? Just start actually looting corpse's and helping out the needy. You get the best of both worlds in that case. Become the Robin Hood of Day Z

[Angel Knight 427]

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Good to see you have finally realized what many of us have been saying from the beginning; I only wish that you had seen this prior to needlessly spoiling the fun of countless new players who were experiencing the first ten minutes of gameplay. Taking in the amazing feeling of being lost and trying to survive, wandering through the city, crawling carefully and thinking that maybe you might find enough food or even a gun, only to have it ended for no reason.

And to think there are still scumbags who defend this behavior, ruining those amazing few hours of discovery and saying "there's nothing better to do."

Hopefully your hero diaries last a good long time.

Your play-style in a video game doesn't reflect (or even affect...usually..) your subconscious.

Yeah it does. This is just a cop out line for douches to continue their trolling.

In truth, only those who have first embraced it, may challenge true darkness.

A bald faced lie. Many of us have been challenging it from the get go. Edited September 3, 2012 by Angel_

[Angel Knight 427]

-accidental double post-

Edited September 3, 2012 by Angel_