A terrible necessity.(Short story)

[ComboBreaker 9]

I got my first kill today.No,not a kill,a murder.Terrible murder that Im ashamed of.

He was not my first victim.I killed people before - one time because of the self defence(I've managed to place a headshot with lee enfield while beeing ripped into shreds by AKM up close,we both died instantly),and while protecting a friend from suspicious survivor.

But this was different.

I went into Balota at night.I found AKM and lots of ammo for it.Moreover,I found a silenced pistol!My heart was racing hard and I knew that I HAD to get some morphine before going north.I had to suicide so many times with decent gear because of broken legs in the middle of nowhere.So,I went into Electro's hospital.

...I got my legs broken by a single crawler.I emptied my silenced pistol's mag in it's dead face with stupid smirk on it.Fucker got me at the very edge of the Electro - trying to get to hospital with 6k and broken legs would mean death.Staying here would mean death too - I did not have food or water at all.

Suddenly I heard a shot nearby.A loud,proud,single shot.

I knew what I had to do.I crawled there and saw a lootable civilian house with a dead zed at it's doorstep.Whoever shot him was looting inside.

I had a microphone.I could use voice chat to ask a person for a morphine.And I'd do it,but the house was roughly 100 meters away,so direct communication won't work.Also I had an AKM and a silenced pistol - lots of people would be tempted to put a bullet into my head without questions.With a short sigh,I took out AKM and started to wait.

...First shot went above his head.He panicked,looked around in panic and tried to strafe,but a following salvo got him.He fell down and as soon as I've tried to get up close to loot morphine and stop his bleeding,"Kris Jensen" died - and with him a part of my soul died.

...He had a single morphine which allowed me to get into hospital.Six bloodbags,five morhines and two epi-pens are in my backpack.Im thinking of sharing it with other people or becoming a doctor - after hiding silenced pistol of cource.A gear,bathed in blood will not serve it's owner well anyway.

I might have commited a murder - but Im still a human - and Im not going to become one of you,twitching bandit scum!

Even if you'd do the same to me,Im terribly sorry Kris.