Reading this makes me giggle because it's exactly how it's been going for me the last few days. I just started on Saturday and had a really hard time finding a gun. I finally found a pistol last night. Right after I found it, I saw someone crawling and thought it was another player. I typed friendly in the chat, then to realize it was a zombie and he ate my face. This morning I spawned in Cherno and found an Enfield. I tried to equip it and must have done something wrong because it vanished. I then found another Enfield, immediately saw a zombie, shot it, got rushed by 10+ zombies, face got ate. But I can honestly say I've enjoyed every minute. Even though I've had a difficult time I've really enjoyed the survival and learning aspect. I'm going to keep trying until I get it. Good luck man, us new guys will get there eventually.